"There’s a certain finality that he seeks right before he falls asleep.
What makes it so damn precious is that it makes his mind spin out of control and thus losing sight of what triggered that first spot of sweat that made all the madness seem worthwhile.
I’m not saying I’m going crazy.
I’m not saying it’s the end.
All I need is to know the way out when I’m done running in circles.
When I’m done thinking that everything is out of my control.
Because it’s not.
Because it can’t.
And I’m right back where I started.”